resistance

I don't want to like anybody. It pisses me off to know I'm falling for someone, which is probably why I treat him so badly. ugh, the thought is quite disgusting. I don't want to be vulnerable
I can't discern lies well enough. you can't trust them. they'll lie to you through their teeth. and I can't tell because I'm not smart enough. and if you're scared, you can't tell them, you can't let them know, cause they'll laugh inside and pretend to care. it doesn't matter if you're hurt, and you're afraid to trust them, they'll lie to you and tell you you can because they don't have any heart. yeah, you're vulnerable.

humility is so important. I don't even know how to justify that, but it's true.